It has been a year!
A full year since my Breast Cancer Diagnosis
I have been coming back to write this post for the last two weeks. On May 29th, I come to a full year since my diagnosis of Breast Cancer.
I thought for some reason I would sit down and the words would just flow out of me and I would have some magical and profound statement to make that would alter your world.
That did not happen…it still has not happened.
At first, my frustration was huge. I really wanted to tell you all the life altering moments, all the lessons I have learned, and that I am a changed human.
I am a changed person, that is real. What is also so very real….
I am really tired. I am so tired.
Sound familiar? Yup, this is the same thing I said when I announced my diagnosis a year ago (you can read it here). Now, I am in a place of some hard core reality moments of recovery. It is very hard to put into words, which is probably why I have struggled for so many days to get this post written.
So, I have decided that I would reflect back on words that have supported me and loved me over the years. Karen Maezen Miller wrote a book called Momma Zen: Walking the Crooked Path of Motherhood. A book that has been read so many times I am not sure the binding is going to hold much longer.
I am sharing her words today.
Read this, and then read it again. This is what I feel to my bones after this past year. As I continue to heal, I read this and I will continue to show up for all of you.
“May you be tired and afraid
overwhelmed and ready to quit.
Quit!
Start over, over
ten thousand times over
roll out, get up, fall down
break into tears
open in laughter
sing and dance
be silly, be glad.
May you forget most things,
remember everything,
come to know in your bones
with your blood
through your eyes
from your lips
out of earth
deep below, well beyond
you are love.
You are just love.
Amen.”
― Karen Maezen Miller, Momma Zen: Walking the Crooked Path of Motherhood
I am going to disappear for 2 weeks. My family and I are heading on a road trip through Colorado and down to Santa Fe, New Mexico to take time to recoup, adventure through nature, and love up time with friends and family. It is my time to rest and heal for a bit.
Hugs + Love!
I will be back doing all the things by July 5th! I look forward to connecting!
Moss and Stone Yoga Studio - Saturdays at 9:00 am for Subtle to Strong Yoga starting Saturday July 5th! In the meantime, check out the class schedule, there are some great options for other classes!
Washburn Meditation Center - Fridays at 8:00 am for Subtle to Strong Yoga starting Saturday July 11th!
Join me at Superior Body and Massage for a Facial! Book online, I would love to see you!
Book a nutrition consult! Let’s connect about your health + wellness!
Enjoy your holiday Darcy.
Isn’t it amazing how life carries on after diagnosis and treatment. I say prostate cancer saved my life and I’m constantly reinventing myself ever since.
After your holiday break I would love to hear what you think about my new book freshly published on Substack. It was written for people like you and I from my experiences as a guide to managing life are a chronic diagnosis.
Enjoy the break and catch up again soon.
https://paulcobbin.com/p/the-trinity-of-you-is-out-now
What a year it has been for you! You've been put through a test of some sort that makes you aware of yourself as a being--fragile yet strong. Occasionally, be sure to hug yourself as a gesture of self-compassion. In the meantime, ENJOY that trip southwest!